Friday, April 16, 2010

I Cannot Say It

Goodbye does not cross my lips. I just can't do it. It's so final. And so wrong.

I'm just like Mom because she can't say it either. She always says "Be good" instead of goodbye and I think this is her way of letting the other person know that she will see them again one day.

Seeking comfort in each other in times like this is all we have. And so I seek comfort in all of you because my sexy friend Penny has died. Died is kind of final too but it's what has happened. To say somepug has passed or left us makes it sound like they are no longer around when in truth they are. I believe this to be true and find solace in knowing Penny is watching me from the bridge. If I know Penny, she wouldn't want all of us to be mourning her death but celebrating her sexy, beefy life by having some whipped cream.


Penny took me to places I've never been. From her daily trek to Starbucks to her hikes in the mountains around Las Vegas, Penny lived the life we all dream of but few of us achieve. She taught me to throw the rules out the window and live on a whim. Wild abandon was how Penny lived and I laughed at her blog each day as I read about her wild adventures. Starbucks will never be the same for me ever again. And I promise you I'll go through the Starbucks drive-thru and ask for a cup of whipped cream just like Penny always did before I die.

Even though I never met Penny nose to nose, I know I will meet her one day on the bridge. I won't have to look far when I get there because she'll be the one wearing the Sponge Bob hat eating whipped cream. Work it Penny!

Mom and I also want to send a big pug hug to Penny's mom Dana. Mom cannot imagine what Dana is going through right now because Mom is liable to eat Popeyes when I die. Just kidding, Mom! Dana, please know we are here for you and that we will never forget Penny.

Last Goodbye - Jeff Buckley

This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die.
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go:
You gave me more to live for,
More than you'll ever know.

13 comments:

Pearl said...

You said it so well, Stubby.

I love your perspective, and you are so right... Penny would want us to remember her life by throwing our cares to the wind and enjoying each day, just like she always did.

Mom and I are having trouble doing that today, because we are too sad. But maybe tomorrow...

THE PUGLET said...

OH, Stubby... And Penny's people... I am very sad for you. I will eat some whipped cream in Penny's honor. And not just because I like whipped cream either :(

Yoda & Brutus said...

Stubby - we couldn't have said it better.

Pugs & Kisses

Yoda & Brutus

Debbie said...

So sad, God bless her little soul

Stella, Gunther and Betty said...

We'll miss Ms. Penny. We feel so sad for Dana.

Love,
Stella, Gunther and Betty

Those Elgin Pugs said...

Stubby -
Mommy has been crying and crying. Daddy even tried to feed her Ice Cream and him suggesting that made her cry even more. Mommy crys at commercials can you imagine what this is doing? we can't even imagine what Penny's Mommy is going through. Mommy says that we are very important and that it's a good support system to have when people who have furbabies like us understand that. We told her to take her own advise and lets us on the 'puter and start giving loves...
Stubby this bloggy was beautiful.
Thank you for making my Mommy smile.
xoxoxo,
Josie, Izzy, and Anakin

Tweedles -- that's me said...

Stubby
I am speechless.
Thank you for finding the words that my lips cannot say.
My heart is so sad, and yes- maybe tomorrow will be a better day.
love
tweedles

Winston (smilingpug) said...

I was shocked to find the news through Tuni's blog. I stopped at Penny's blog and realized it was true. So sudden, so soon. Crying is all that I do right now as I think of how Dana must feel. I can put myself in her shoes and feel the devastation and loss. I imagine it like it was me losing Winston. It helps to ease the tears when people like you post these wonder posts. Stubby you are so right. Tomorrow Winston and I will share some whip cream in memory of Penny.

dw said...

I started seeing the titles of blog posts and just knew what had happened, and it made me very sad. Like you, whipped cream will always remind me of Penny. And like you, I can't really say goodbye, because it does sound so final. I kinda like "see ya later, pugagator!"

So would next week work for a puggie fix? Maybe we can meet for lunch and then get some pug time? Whenever it's good for you, I can adjust my schedule, just come up with a date, time and place that works and I'll be there (and maybe we can have some whipped cream!).

Heee, the security word is "beeknom"....sounds like you're supposed to be nomming some chicken there! Mmmm Popeye's! nom nom nom nom nom!

RILEY AND STAR said...

Aaah,

We know you will miss Penny alot butt, we bet those bo-dawgs up in heaven are glad she is there.

Riley and Star.

Wilma said...

Stubby,
What a sweet, tender tribute to Penny.We will all hold each other close in our hearts to help Pennys Mom and each other heal from such a sad loss.

李妍妮 said...

No pains, no gains.......................................................

Apollo said...

I'm so sorry...I'm going to have a whipped shot too.